People:*laughing three blocks away from me*
Me:It’s me. They’re laughing at me…
People:*laughing three blocks away from me*
Me:It’s me. They’re laughing at me…
friend: ugh i haven’t eaten all day but i just don’t feel that hungry
me: UM???? wtf dude you HAVE to eat i love you let me make you mac and cheese
me: *stomach growls bc i haven’t eaten in 36 hours*
me @ myself: stfu you fat bitch starve
My ed: starve.
Me: okay
Me: *doesn’t eat all day*
My ed: I said STARVE.
Me: I am
My ed: sTaRVe
Me: I AM
My ed: STARVE BETTER
Me: *screams*
My ed: *screams louder*
Some Asshole: You can’t be! Truly yourself! If you’re on medication! It’s changing the Real You™!
Me: if the real me is going to lie on the floor for 3 weeks and try to drown herself in the river I don’t want to know her, Barbara
*me* oh wow I’m so jealous of the people who can eat normally and don’t obsess over food, I wonder what that feels like, maybe I should consider recovery
*also me* whAT 375 calories in a siNGLE SANDWICH that’s like my whole F*CKING daily intake NO THANK YOU
*me* recovery. Definitely. Recovery. Much wow.
Me: I think I’m kinda hu-
My ED: YOU MEAN HORNY FOR WATER?!?
Me: *looks at food and doesn’t know the calories*
Intrusive thoughts: UFO, Unidentified Fattening Object
new person: hi!
me: my personality for you will arrive in 5-7 business days once I figure out what makes you happy and how I feel around you
literally anyone: are you ok?
me: you mean like your standards ok or my standards ok
